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Sha Janellabel a young adolescent who is still in search to find who she really is. She finds pleasure doing the things she likes, she don't care what people thinks.
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006 5/31/2006 05:50:00 PM
THE HEAT IS ON... IDOL FEVER HAS CONQURED!
so far since the competition has started, ive GOT my TOP 3 CONTESTANTS! on my list
THEY ARE....

yea. i simply love paul coz he got his own "thing". LOVE IT! that's e way dude!

rahimah! she's my bro's schoolmate. she's a hot chic with her own attitude! u go girl!

tengku! he is just a sweet guy with a GREAT voice.

i don't mind finishing up my $ to vote for them.

SO YOU GUYS CAN'T MISS TODAY'S ACTION!

WHERE THE COMPETITION BEGINS....


5/31/2006 11:56:00 AM
THERE AND BACK.

do you guys know Ashley Parker Angel from a boy band called O Town??




to this...>







now he is a reality tv show called "There And Back"
he has just been declared a dad.
in this show, he is giving us a peak on how he juggles family and work at the same time.
he now has a greater responsibilty with his new baby and his upcoming album.
and yesterday he gave a peak of his song about her wife-to-be Tiffany.
u guys should check it out.
but of course if you have cable vision.
if not check out on this website http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1519870/01062006/o_town.jhtml

enjoy!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 5/30/2006 12:51:00 PM
FUCK OFF BITCH! HATE YOU!
she's a bitch!
well that's me when someone piss me of.
what the hell?!
did my eyes played tricks on me or is it really them?!
holding hands together?!
dude you sucks!
and i hate you!
luckily i got to know it now!
if this "secret" was to be dragged for a long time what more when school re-open, i don't know how to face the world!
jerk!
thanks for helping me end my misery sooner!
im telling you there will be NO REGRETS!
you are just BLINDED BY A STUPID PRETTY BITCH WHO IS GONNA HURT YOU AGAIN!
whatever!
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN OF THIS SHIT!
can't accept how i feel now then fuck off!
DON'T START TO GIVE ME SHIT AITE!

Monday, May 29, 2006 5/29/2006 11:06:00 PM
Pieces of A Teenage Girl



5/29/2006 02:56:00 PM
i prayed hard for SYED AZMIR'S safety.

i read the newpaper yesterday and got to know that Syed Azmir was at Jogyakarta, Jawa tengah, Indonesia where the earthquake which killed about 3,000 lives.
syed azmir was at indonesia to do his album.
he was in the hotel when the quake happen.
he then decided to leave the place but can't as the airport are all closed.
he saw the hotel in a slunted manner when he was standing outside it.
FANS OF SYED AZMIR LET'S ALL OF US PRAY FOR HIS SAFETY AND HOPE NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO HIM.
as that was all he asked for now.
insyallah with the benefit of our prayers, nothing will happen to him.

5/29/2006 02:46:00 PM
ive got nothing to do and did this!







Saturday, May 27, 2006 5/27/2006 11:32:00 PM
I just cant close my eyes!

why??
why am i so obsessed with him??
when i saw his photo taken with someone else, got to know that he cared so much for another person just now really disturbed me.
oh i just wish i can end my misery of liking him soon.
i thought i could wait for him for as long as possible but i think that may not be true.
i know for a fact that he might have someone in mind.
but i can't freakin stop liking him!
why must i always be in the same situation EACH TIME??!!
something will cork up when i thought it was already perfect.
and my prediction always prove me WRONG!
fuck it!

well.
i cannot follow the flow of my emotion.
i must learn how to control myself.
i wont let my emotion take over me.
yea.
i had alot of reflection to do.
peace!

5/27/2006 06:27:00 PM
Just Woke Up!
haha.
i just woke up.
i got back from my SYF at around 3pm.
well.
there was alot of drama when the 4 of us were at KFC.
i dont want to explain what actually happened because its kind of UGLY for me to tell.
but i can say this.
why can't parents just put trust in thier children.
Not ME.
but my friend.
geez.
i don't want to talk about it.
im just worried about my friend.
tomorrow im going to watch my brother and his friends play soccer.
they are at the finals for the JOGA BONITO.
haha.
they are all good skillfull guys.
wakaka.
can't wait for tomorrow.
i miss him.
alot you know.
but just now my friend told my something that CRUSHED my heart.
sobx!
well.
at least got to see him in about 3-4 days time.
well my hand is tired due to the syf training just now.
so peace!

Friday, May 26, 2006 5/26/2006 10:27:00 PM
im having lots of stuffs going on EVEN during my june vacation!

well tomorrow's is going to be my 2nd SYF training.
haha.
it's going to be FUN!
1st batch of Sec 3 to hold what is it called, M-16??
haha.
and also to wear the NO.1 uniform which only Guard-of-Honour wears it.
haha.
mr lim told me to take a picture when we wear the NO.1 uniform.
he said he is going to place the picture in the school magazine.
i was like "WHAT??!!"
haha.
cool but not cool.
its so embarrassing!
haha.
well i chat with my old schoolmate just now.
he is so cool.
haha.
he talked about singapore poly snd stuff like that.
haha.
well actually just got back.
went out just now.
haha.
so like everyone else who is back at this kind of time.
IM TIRED AND I WANNA GO TO BED COZ HAVE A STUPID EARLY WAKE TOMORROW!


5/26/2006 12:50:00 PM
I Really Need To Buck Up!
i do not expect myself to be ranked quite low just because i failed my English.
i am utterly disappointed with myself.
now i have realised that English played such a BIG role in my studies.
though i am going for a break later during my june holidays, i know i do not deserve it.
i need to use my remaining days during my holidays to buck up my studies, ALL OF THEM!
and though i have not come into good terms with my preacious friend i will always wish her all the best and hope that she will enjoy her holidays.
im going to change just you see.
this is a resolution that i will aim for.
NOW JUST WAIT AND SEE YOU AGAIN WHEN SCHOOL RE-OPENS!
HAVE FUN EVERYONE AND ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS, PEACE!

Thursday, May 25, 2006 5/25/2006 08:25:00 PM
Is this what it's called 'LOVE'??

When you miss someone dearly, is it called LOVE?
When you just have to look at his face just to make you smile is it called LOVE?
When all you could think of is him and him only each minute of your life, is it called LOVE?
When you hurt yourself while thinking of him, is it called LOVE?

Love can be in all sort of perspective. It's just how you accept it and how you view the true meaning of love.

It can be beautiful, it can be ugly. But how you see the deeper meaning of LOVE will then you realise how wonderful LOVE actually is.

I think im in love but how long this LOVE will last im not sure and will let nature take its course and let destiny decide for me.



Monday, May 22, 2006 5/22/2006 04:19:00 PM
why can't i accept reality?? accepting the true fact??

why i cannot accept reality that im bad??
im just a BAD friend, a stupid girl, a stupid gurl who is in my illusion of liking a guy whom i knows that my feelings wont be returned by him.
I KNOW WHO AM I??!!
I MAY NOT BE PRETTY BUT I DO HAVE MY DIGNITY!!!
but does anyone EVER, EVER, thought about how i feel??
do know what??
you guys don't have to bother to answer coz' i know exactly what is your answer.
i "lost" a friend whom i have betrayed her trust.
today she will only talk to me if i started the conversation.
she usually will so call "find me" or "take a glance at me" whenever she walk passed my class.
but she didn't.
actually i looked and smile at her when she walked passed just now and thought that she was looking back at me.
but actually she looked at my other friend and ignored me.
do u guys actually know how i felt at that moment???
crushed, so so so sad.
i know im at fault.
i won't blame her for that.
but if i could just turned around the clock i would not have done IT.
how could she realised how remorse i am and how much i don't want my friendship to go on seperate ways.
she helped me alot and i still need her guidance.
i still believe that she is one of my siztas that i could share my sorrow with because she is one sensible girl.
I AM SO SO SORRY!

my "love life" sucked much more!
why cant i just accept the fact that he is much more interested in other girl than me.
well that's not suprising!
who would want to look at me what more GLANCE at me???
NO ONE!!!
i tried all means to forget him.
force myself to like someone else.
BUT I JUST CAN'T!!!!

MY LIFE HAS BEEN A ROLLER COSTER RIDE THIS WEEK.

I AM ME, PLZ ACCEPT ME FOR WHAT I AM NOT FOR WHAT I ACTED TO BE.

I AM IN DILEMMA!!!!



Saturday, May 20, 2006 5/20/2006 03:54:00 PM
REMORSE IS WHAT I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW!
I asked my friend, A, about something my gd buddy, B, told me.
It wasn't true he said.
And so i just forget about it thinking that it's just a prank.
Today i got to know that A told her and then B got pissed.
B asked me and i told B the truth of what I ASKED and what A SAID.
Gosh!
I know B is angry with me now!
I felt so guilty.
What am I supposed to do when i see THEM on Mon??!!
EEERRRGGGHHH!!!!
Just Shut Up!

Friday, May 19, 2006 5/19/2006 07:47:00 PM
I AM SUCH A FAILURE!
i just got my chem marks.
pls don't even ask!
i did badly. very badly.
overall i failed my chem.
i don't believe that jannifer's result is as disappointing as mine.
must i always got this kind of results??
it's kind of not fair for someone who does nothing but did well when i am struggling to do well.
which i failed to do so.
i am so STUPID!
hah! and now worst!
my hp bill SHOOT up!
my parents is controlling the use of my hp.
OH MAN!
not this again!!
i hope they won't come into a decision for me to use pp8!
PLZ! THAT WILL BE A TOTAL NIGHTMARE!
i can't save money to top up if i gt one.
all my savings is for my shopping.
hope i get to kind of psycho my parents.
haha!
so my lovely fwensy peeps muz reduce in calling me and sms me!
haha again!
shazy OUT!

Thursday, May 18, 2006 5/18/2006 09:11:00 PM
am im born a failure???
i can say that i could see myself GOING DOWN!
with only maths and malay WHERE IS MY PROBLEM ANYWAY???
being not able to be like among or a part of your frends who could at least scored a C6 for their subjectS is quite disencouraging to me.
how i wish that i have super brains like sandy and jannifer.
passing every subject and dont even have to worry abt knowing their facts right.
i even failed my english!
can u even believe that??!!
i mean its the languange that i used everywhere i go even in my TOILET!
damn! things just dont go the way you always wished to go.
even in liking someone i sucked at it!!
im like the total loser or the most idiotic freak in the world!
and you think being me is easy!
WELL IT'S NOT, NOT EVEN AN INCH EASY!

5/18/2006 08:40:00 PM
is it worth it or is it a waste of my time??

how am im i going to forget about you?
its obviously that you will not accept my love.
but why am im still hanging on to you?
i just wonder why ??
you are always surrounded my girls after girls but i still can't even bother.
are you someone who is worth for me to wait and for me to share my love with?
gosh! im in such in a dilemma!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006 5/17/2006 12:08:00 PM
yesterday i went up to town with my two siztas nurul and shikin(acad).
it was such a fun and the most happiest day in my life.
it all started when i was waiting for shikin at her bus stp before meeting nurul.
i saw my cute friend faridee.
he asked me where im going and with who.
i said to town and with my siztas.
he don't believe because he thought i was going with him.
he also said he saw him and said that he was wearing the same colour as me.
i don't believe him and thought that he was only tried to make me happy.

shikin finally came.
told her about what faridsee told me and she said wow!
and so we took a bus to nurul's bus stp.
when we reached nurul's bus stp i shouted "hey that's him and his friend!"
and so shikin went down the bus quickly and went to him and said "hi"
and she called my name so loudly and he turned.
i was so paisey.
he boarded the bus and i looked at him.
he looked back and it was so cool.
he was so so cool with his cool style made him more stylo and of course shuai.

haiz.
shikin called him asking where he is going.
he said bugis and coincidentlly we are going there too.
it was cool but i konw i wont see him anymore.
bugis is big mind you.

and so meet nurul and went staraight to bugis.
the weather was kind of hot.
all of was thirsty.
and we went to bugis village.
guess what we saw seok hui and her friend.
wow!
they really went far, with uniform some more.
haha
and 2nd wow
WE SAW HIM AGAIN WHEN CROSSING THE ROAD towards bugis village.
aaahhhh!!!
im so happy
haha

we went to look for a watch but all not nice.
so we change our location to somerset
haha
we shop like hell!
haha
i bought a skirt and a belt.
haha.

ouk.
tired lah.
let u see some pics we took yesterday.
































shazy OUT!
peace

Monday, May 15, 2006 5/15/2006 05:18:00 PM
one down one last one to go.
tmw's dnt day.
and i cant wait to be stress free!
and tmw im going to celebrate with my siztas at town!
we are going to enjoy ourselves like WOW!
haha.
well tmw keep ya updated.
to all e2 freaks LET'S COUNTDOWN TOGETHER!
A FEW MORE HOURS LEFT!

IM OUT
SHAZY ZAZZY

Sunday, May 14, 2006 5/14/2006 04:12:00 PM
hey. its been long since ive updated my profile. haha
today's mothers day and yesterday i went to look for a present with my brother.
at first we wanted to buy her a adidas handbag but the design is not nice and so we skipped it.
and then we wanted to go to Hejab Iran to buy for her a scarf but the design has too much patterns and we know it wont be of my mom's interest.
so we had a final choice to buy her a scarf at the shop beside The Jamu House.
well my mom liked it and im happy.

tmw's is physics paper.
i felt so unprepared.
ive not even started on my DNT.
gosh!
what am i going to do??

well.
i dont feel like writing anymore.
so.
im out

Thursday, May 11, 2006 5/11/2006 03:40:00 PM
today is a happy and a foul day for me. Its a foul day coz it was totally bizzare for both my chem n poa paper. even miss wong said that we did badly for our MCQ when poa paper finished! dont even think of talking about poa coz im gonna flunk this 2 subjects. well if i wanna pass science i must buck up on my physics which is on mon n my last paper is dnt on tuesday. Muah! =( on tuesday he not cuming to sch coz he gt no paper! well, talking about him just now was so cool. end of poa nabilla went into my class and then we went to talk infront of her class. i totally comlained to her saying that i cannot do my poa. then is when the best part happens that made my day today. he knock into me. i was like who the hell?? when i turned my back it was him and then he said sorry, sorry.haha.then nabilla laugh weeweet! n called him.i was so paisey and went into my class back and told iqah.she was =) for me too.and so all of us including him went out together.haha.he is such a lamer.nabilla called and said u dont be a lamer lah.i wanted to laugh but i tried to control.haha.he so poor thing got sore throat and bought strepsils.haha.funny sia.and then he went back home with edwin and javier.no he did not took the bus.wish that he took it.well much more laughter when all of us are walking towards the bus stop. i told ekynn what happened.and she was smiling.and then the crazy nabilla said "surely she wont wash her uniform coz got memories." then shikin said "she will just hang her uniform lorz.haha." every just cant stop laughing haha.
yesterday was also fun i went to study with kyn and then meet up with nurul and kak ain. when i want to meet nurul i saw zul, our ex JYian, kak ain's friend.haha.i waved at him and he smiled.he's so cute.quite good looking.haha.well he's just a friend.nothing more then that.yesterday was so wild story too long so i wont say.haha. well nurul ky n me bought the same hairband.like retro type.i green, nurul pink.kyn blue. haha.though its not in we don't care coz we dont always folloe trend.haha.
k im goin to my preacious bed which ive not taken a nap on for a long time since exam.haha
im out
-shazy zazzy-

Monday, May 08, 2006 5/08/2006 06:44:00 PM
This song is actually about my ex. I only change the lyrics of e song long time ago wen I just broke up with him. I just want share with you guys. This song is sang the same way the song “Why Don’t You Kiss Her” by Jesse McCartney. I know shikin knows how to sing it.

I was so glad
When I finally meet you
You was everything that is on my mind
Now my life has changed
And you brought light into my world
Hear this wad my heart says
Danny I…

I will always love you
I will always think of you
I will always keep in mind all the time we share
Coz’ you always be, the first one to be
My true prince charming

Now that its all gone
You’ve became my past
It was hard for me but I took the choice
Wish you find someone
Who is able to replace me
But Danny I juz wanna let you know
Though I can’t let go…

I will always love you
I will always think of you
I will always keep in mind all the time we share
Coz’ you always be, the first one to be
My true prince charming

What would it be?
I wonder would my life turn to pale
Would there gonna be another prince
In this world, I keep asking myself…

I will always love you
I will always think of you
I will always keep in mind all the time we share
Coz’ you always be, the first one to be
My true prince charming

Friday, May 05, 2006 5/05/2006 04:55:00 PM
yesterday my dream came true...muakaka...well i dreamt that i went to study with him n nabilla... we sit at a table and i sit beside nabilla n he sat infront of me...it happened yesterday when we were studying! OMG! it was cool...den me dad call den gt leave early got urgent matter...den he was siting at whr i sat before i went to e toilet..of all places to sit he sit at mine...aiyoh! den me came back from toilet his hand was on top of my file n worksheet..at 1st i went to take my file...den suddenly i saw my worksheet and then i took it..wen i want to take a bit paisey but i just say sorry! hahaha...me was so happy!
today crazy valerie n si hui went to chase after him...haha...funny sia...he look cute wen he run and smile at the same time...haha...
n today was such a SAD day coz MR WONG IS LEAVING!!! my two deary friends nabilla and fathiah cried..i told them not to cry coz mr wong live around my neighbourhood...haha...thank yopu mr wong for all your guidance and sharing your knowledge with us...we will miss u n will do our best for your paper...
so miss you all & study hard for mon paper..
im out
Shazy Zazzy

Wednesday, May 03, 2006 5/03/2006 04:42:00 PM
ermm..ive nt been writing for abt 2 daes?? so am back..my preacious mummy is hospitalised again...erghh!!...my MID YEAR! dont even think of asking coz ive only covered maths and chem..OMG..im really in deepp shit!...well..things with him seems to get worse, i guess... lifes seems to be better for ashikin but not me...haiz...when am i ever going on talking terms with him??
for what i noe i will wait and wait till eternity..eeuu..im so emo! yucks... but i just hope life between us will be like old times...i wish... had a lot of gd and bad dreams abt him..hope e gd ones will come thru..
im tired lah.. later must go tuition some more...
so im OUT
-Shazy Zazzy-