Truth.Beauty.Love.Freedom.

2010-05-27T19:45:00.001+08:00

Happy 19th Faddy! Happy 18th Dorcas! love you babes. CLUBBING, KITE FLYING, SWIMMING & PARTY!!

2010-05-24T21:03:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling terribly shitty and depressed right now about myself. I don't know what I'm even doing. Gah! RED ALERT!

2010-05-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

i feel the comfort and the joy just being with you. is that how one truly should feel? the excitement is never-ending, and it feels like there is just so many things that we could do but with the little time we have we it's hard to achieve everything. if it means i'm given these moment to embrace, i shall hold it tight, i promise. LET'S PARTY BABY!

2010-05-16T20:21:00.001+08:00

I found myself in a position where i feel comfortable of myself. but that's not a good thing. I'm getting complacent. oh heck, i love you!

2010-05-16T10:51:00.002+08:00

thanks to this two awesome talented guys, yesterday was a blast. we've only practiced from Monday to Thursday consecutively. i gotta give it to this two. I LOVE THEM TO BITS! and i would like to thank A LOT OF PEOPLE but you all know who you are. LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS TOO! & that special someone, I LOVE YOU TRULY, thanks for the great night.

2010-05-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

she taught me something not Economics related. she taught me that you don't necessary need to be smart to do very well in anything, in this case my exams, you just have to be slightly hardworking than other people and you'll definietly reach your goal.
I WANT TO GET AT LEAST A "D" FOR ECONS PROMO 1 FOR HER.

thanks miss poh.

2010-04-30T21:00:00.002+08:00

i've been having a dilemma onto which to save on, a DSLR (self-owned!) or a Holga camera for quite some time. Holga is definietly cheaper & more fun. DSLR is more professional photography. Gah, i might ended up getting both.

2010-04-29T01:22:00.003+08:00

i didn't post for almost 2 weeks or so and i don't know why. usually i would have somthing to say. but this time nothing. there are lots of things that aren't going the way i wanted the past month and i literally feel like "how worse can tmw be?" I've not been consistent in my revision which i have to do prompto if i want that June holiday trip. alot of work to be done. and i need money. I'm totally BROKE. what a life seriously? =_=

and there is this particular person that just can't get out of my mind. EVERDAY name, face and everything about this person stuck in my head. and it's really exhausting here on my side to be the one trying always. why are you so selfish and selfless?

2010-04-17T11:04:00.003+08:00

thanks for the awesome GAYY fun yesterday bithces! it's great distressing with you guys. but SYAFIQ & DEAREST ALLY next meet up will be karaoke session cum other awesom shit so be sure to make yourself very available. lots of assignments & tutorials to do. have a great weekend people.

2010-04-15T20:44:00.003+08:00

the lyrics to my songs suddenly disappear.

i am worried will you ever get to hear?

i retreat myself if it's meant to be

for i am nothing compared to that she.

2010-04-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

i swear i don't like how things turn up now. i swear this is not what i've imgained it to be. i swear i can't hate you like you want me to. i swear you're such an ass to make me fall for you. i swear i miss you so much. i swear that my feelings are true & i just want to say i really love you.

2010-04-13T17:07:00.004+08:00

when i found at that confession from you i was broken. you pulled me down to the deepest end of the world that i got no strength to pull myself up to the surface. why must you be so evil?

2010-04-08T02:32:00.003+08:00

greetings netizens. im in my brain-dead mode. apparently, i reached homw an hour ago after sending my elder brother off to Brunei along with two of his friends. how fast time flies from my brother turning 21 just 5 days ago (& it seems forever) and in like 15mins or so, he should be on his way to Brunei. gah! turning 21 is really something. my brother received LOTS of awesome presents! gonna miss you dearest idiotic good-loking(chey!) brother!

2010-03-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

2010-03-28T13:28:00.003+08:00

thanks dad for the gift. adik and shukry will learn to play our guitar well. :) and thanks for the fun whirlwind of shopping yesterday. you bought somthing for all of us which is AWESOME!haha. Love you dad. :) now just got to prepare for my elder bro's 21st birthday bash this sat. dude prepare to get whacked!

Kudos to Timberland and National Geographic store for being a part of the Earth Hour. :)

2010-03-27T00:01:00.004+08:00

phew, what a long day today. from "BE YOURDELF DAY" for $2 and had friendly match against JJC & PJC. overall my day was fine. thanks daddy for the non-nagging time. he was nice to me. he made fun of me being smelly even. haha. ASS! :) love you daddy.

tmw going to be STUDY STUDY STUDY! i want to make studying & mugging a part of me. like one of the characteristic of SHA! haha. bullshit. im bored because i'm missing someone. haha.

it's Earth Hour tme people. take up this small act to help save mother nature. may we live in a world that is already beautiful. :)

2010-03-22T21:43:00.002+08:00

ok, i had a week long of slacking and none productive time spent on studying. The game starts now, time to prepare for my:
1. Promo 1 Exams
2. Project Work & H1 Math
3. MY FUTURE.

I'll only feel good about myself once I've slim down and lose 10kg this year and subsequent amount till i get my ideal weight.

2010-03-21T22:52:00.001+08:00

Lad, don't change now please because I'm starting to fall for YOU.

2010-03-21T19:48:00.003+08:00

YAY! aku happy. was on the phone with lovely kyn just now. fuck! imy biatch! haha.
& my darling murny is gg Bali soon. have a fun & safe trip hunny. end of the year another round of trip to Bali, triple "date" aye? hehe.
ILY SHIKIN & MURNY!

2010-03-20T15:55:00.002+08:00

so long Nokia & farewell Apple.

Meet your new mama, HTC HD2!

haha. so fcuked up & tired.

2010-03-17T00:53:00.002+08:00

Don't be someone you're not. Potraying your flaws is not something we should show off or having something to say about it to prove to people you're as perfect. Instead, embrace it but don't flaunt it. That's just my perception. People may disagree, well guess what, I can't please everyone.

I want my sony or can-nik as soon as possible. Im dying of being deprived of it. I can't live without doing it. It's like something you love but you can't seem to be able to love it full heartedly. Based on my current situation, i obviously do not deserve it. But Im going to get it. Im gonna work it out and get it by all means. I'll prove them wrong & I'll make them proud.

2010-03-08T20:22:00.003+08:00

i deserve a tight slap on my face. people's results are all either getting better or at least maintain mine is totally the opposite. i might go into depression soon but i won't give in to it.

BUCK UP SHA!
PROMO 1 TARGET:
MOB-C
POA-D
Econs-D
Math- E/D (was never good in Math -_-)

2010-03-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

puff puff the shisha pipe,
rock rock the rocker's life.

2010-03-01T21:34:00.003+08:00

I've never wanting to change myself before. Thank you special someone, I'll work hard.

2010-03-01T10:40:00.001+08:00

2010-02-24T20:35:00.003+08:00

that adrenaline rush runs through my vein everytime i hear that sort of conviction of such confession. it feels like your heart skipped a beat. i need to get my feelings clear, am i ready?

2010-02-21T13:07:00.001+08:00

farewell CHINGAY fun, all the best for common test tmw.

2010-02-16T16:43:00.002+08:00

how weird, im browsing through wedding gowns, rings, location, decor. no way, im growing up too fast for my age.

2010-02-16T00:48:00.001+08:00

that's what i should be doing but not really doing it. what a shame, how i've failed myself.

2010-02-13T10:08:00.002+08:00

my dearest friends who won't be able to meet up ystd better be available when i ask you guys huh. but gotta thank ally for making the night so awesome lepak shisha session. haha. im extremely beat now coz when i reach home this morning (past midnight) my cousin picked me up to head off jb. when i reach there its like the "party" is still on. my parents were busy bbq-ing & stuffs with lots of people there, friends & family. i like my jb house & staying there (except for the ppl tho), but it's so tiring to go up & down every wkend. so i'm back like 30mins ago with my cousin. i literally stayed awake the whole morning. im not able to sleep till now. im going to mess my place with my cousin! yes. haha

GONG XI FA CAI ALL!

2010-02-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

oh my goodness. i am literally going insane. assignments piling up. revisions not entirely completed (say 40%) and project work that is endlessly difficult with so much of depth that i don't even know where to start. 911!

2010-02-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

get my arms and legs toned and get some nice tight abs. yes.

i want to feel like and jump as high as my legs could push me away from the ground.

2010-02-05T22:24:00.002+08:00

what's that adrenaline rush i felt everytime there's that presence? it's been a very long time ever since i had this kinda feeling. but as always that insecurity i had in me tells me that "no you can't sha." oh my. this is a bittersweet feeling that i don't know how to react. please take care of yourself.

2010-02-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

im so happy i talked to bitch farith! Haha. Totally missed him, ally, saiful & shafiq. Without them in sch, its less fun. Bleargh.
Oh oh back to farith. Haha. He said i'll look HOT once i lose my weight. You kidding me? He said he's not joking and that he could imagine me being H-O-T BABY! haha. Oh, thanks farith for boosting my morale. Wont let u down buddy. Ok im getting DARKER. 2 months of effort trying to be fairer wasted. bleargh again.

2010-02-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

Now; multi-tasking. doing PI, dicussing GP presentation & enjoying Chicken Breast Sandwich with hot chocolate prepared by my mummy. yum.

so how's your day people? you know what? whatever that has happens today will be past tense. forget the past, think about present and plan for the future. yeah. ROCK ON! \m/

2010-01-31T23:24:00.003+08:00

poof. im so busy lately that whenever im on blogger page i dont know what to write. so here's a head start, PS introduced me to this guy by the name of Gabe Bondoc (cool last name btw) he's from the phillipines and he has this nice tone to his voice that could melt girls, oh well, at least for me he did. he got a gazzillion of viewers for his videos & i think of all songs that he sang as a cover, i liked this below, a song by adele the most. cheers.

p.s: he's cute, you gotta admit.

2010-01-19T18:23:00.004+08:00

during econs today, a LOUD conversation :

Me: OH PEISHI! YOU LIKE DORCAS?

Peishi: SHA! YOU BI HUH?

Me: Wtf!

on a lighter note, dad said he wants to go Langkawi this march holidays. i hope the plan's still on because im doing planning for him now. hehe. i need a job soon because i want to go Bangkok with my sugar huns, Murny and Ain. anyone wants to join us? hee, i deserve such breaks in between. :)

2010-01-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

i didnt realise things got so bad. sha, what the hell were you thinking? its fcuking digusting to even mirror yourself. it's really now or never. or else good luck with your life ahead. you wouldn't want to sink deeper into the sea with no chance of getting back up to catch your breath. it's this instance or you'll regret.

2010-01-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

omg thanks PEISHI for the present from Korea! its a bit reflective because its in a plastic. i don't want it to get damaged in any way. hehe. gahm sah hahm ni da(TQ), tangsinul sarang ha yo(ILY)!

2010-01-14T21:12:00.004+08:00

this week i realised how occupied my life this year will be. its the most hectic year that I'm going to face. tutorials after assignments after presentation after test after project work after revising. that's terribly tight and i have to face it. the heat is burning up that i could feel it in my bones now. tmw will be the end of the 1st week at sch yet i compare my brain with z smashed bottle. whoa, I'll have to work hard. things i need a big change:

- sacrifice my fun time for big time sake

- manage my time well with cca & hw

- lose weight huge time before i turn '20' (this yr i hv that gr8ter urge to fulfil this)

- make myself listen & read more current news

2010-01-08T11:53:00.004+08:00

(this are the "night company", the "afternoon company" i'll upload the pic when i got it.)

wokey. so yesterday was one hella of a birthday. haha. i enjoyed myself so much! i won't say much waht i did but i want to say thanks to those people who made my day yesterday :D my birthday celebration won't just stop from yesterday, it will continue till tmw. haha! oh this was the best birthday of my life! & i know the fun just started, more fun days are coming up! woohoo. MI people, GET UR BUTT READY FOR SCHOOL ON MONDAY! SEE YA!

Thanks for the prezzies! the one in the container with a lil cute card is the most special present because that mystery monster couldn't join the celebration coz of sch shit & went all the way to my crib when i wasnt there to send it itself. thanks you mystery monster, ILY!

2010-01-06T20:27:00.003+08:00

the clock is ticking. im going to be a year older in 3 hours 30 mins. i've been thinking about what i've done for the past nineteen years of my life. i realise that there are certain goals that i've yet to achieve. a year older doesnt make you any difference from a kid unless you change yourself and be a better person. there are people that i've disappoint and people that i've made a difference in their life. im glad that i'm still living in this world till date to celebrate my 19th birthday. i begin to value every single moment in my life and won't allow anything to make me an invaluable person.

i would like to thank my mum Samsiah Rasman for taking good care of me for nine months till i see the world. thanks for bringing me around the world when i was still in that place of yours. thanks for all your love that you've poured to me and constantly being there for me. im blessed to have such a wonderful mum like you. i love you.:)

following closely behind my dad Mohd Hishom Sosman. thank you for giving me the best of everything, providing all my needs and being a supportive parent to me. thanks for bringing me up with the right values in me. there are countless when i've made you mad. but i'll always be your lil girl. :) i love you.

finally, i would like to extend my gratitude to every single human being that has play a role in my life story.i could not mention all because there are just so many you that have made a difference in my life. each of splash the different wonders of colours into my life. as it is, it can't get anymore colourful. thank you you guys. i love you guys to bits. :D

LASTLY, SUFIE MUNIRA, whom shares the same birthday date as me,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HUNNY!

HOPE YOU HAVE AN ASS WHOPPIN' TIME. :)

2010-01-05T10:55:00.003+08:00

oh damn i felt good after playing sport yesterday. i 've let all my steam off. i've decided to give sport a try to let me steam off after lan said whenever he kicked the soccer ball, he let of his frust with that kick. it worked. haha. i always learn something new whenever i chat with lan. he can be a motivater or something of sort. you'll either feel enlighten or a new meaningful lesson from a conversation with him, kudos to SAHLAN im back to my happy self!

2010-01-03T11:14:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a mix of feelings for me. i had fun with girlfriends yet i had this fcuking piss mood in me. thanks gfs for that loud company. haha. really had fun till i feel like i had a hangover from that almost-3 hours-of-shisha.

on the other note, for this biatch and this person whom i love acting like a jerk. i don't fcuking care if you're changing or what, if so, you shouldn't readily agree upon such meeting someone alone when you clearly knew what was coming. AND DON'T BE SUCH A THICK-SKIN biatch AND JUST USE PEOPLE'S STUFF for whatever fcuking reason you have. whether that jerk gave you the permission or not, have some pride that that is other people's preoperty.
as for this jerk, i'm fucking pissed and disappointed in you most. i almost couldn't believe you did such despicable stuffs behind my back. fcuk your lust and all! don't you have a religion or your parents didn't taught you well enough. other jerks can do that for all i fcuking care but to hear those kind of stuffs about you made me so fcuked up. ah! fcuk you both lah for making me so fcuking miserable now. i shouldn't have gave that biatch number if i knew this was coming u fcuker.

2010-01-01T12:24:00.005+08:00

Sup 2010!

ystd was a whole lot of partying and fun AWESOME time with my elder brother and his mates till wee morning. even so, i suprisingly woke up after 4 hours of sleep. haha. what the hell. my body is tired tho. 6 days to my bday and arnd 10 days till school reopens. im so ready to kick off 2010 man. ya'all out there have a blast in 2010, WORLD PEACE.

* btw dad, thanks for the Iphone. though your lovely daughter here wanted that Blackberry Bold 9700 or E72, i'll try my best to love the phone. and no, i wont use that phone yet. ah! touched-screen phone! haha

2009-12-30T13:36:00.002+08:00

tasks for today:

- spring cleaning for my messy room of 2 months

- finsh up my oh-i-forgot-there's-homework assignments

- don't go out with anyone & stay at home (technically its not a task)

2009-12-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

"Avatar" was a excellent movie. dinner at vivo. teh tarik at little india was damn feeling, of all places. now, watching the world go by at starbucks while waiting for dad to fetch. i had fun. hah, doesn't sound convincing right. bye, busy on deciding to get a new phone.

2009-12-28T19:19:00.001+08:00

Got myself a new pair of Vans. Vantastic. Thanks dad. :)

2009-12-27T23:15:00.003+08:00

The "Cool Cat" has won Season's 3 of Singapore Idol!

Kudos for Sezairi Sezali.

thanks for making a hat trick this year dude. you deserved it. :)

2009-12-15T22:48:00.003+08:00

urgh, i really need a new guitar for my own. i don't want to be always sharing it with my lil bro. he needs it for sch. as for me, i need to start having melody for my songs and have a couple of friends to be my sessionists. plus, the both of us could do like a duo thingy together, brother and sis duo. he thought me alot i should say. if you guys by any chance feeling curious about my lil bro, here is he.

damn im worn out after playing in the rain just now with him. amazingly i had fun. hah. goodnight.

2009-12-15T14:38:00.002+08:00

weekends was awesome. hehe. monday was fine. today is so slow. oh wells, i've made a few list of things im going to ditch from 2009 and the things im going to change for the better for 2010. it's never easy to stick to your resolutions, maybe for some but not for me. im always tied down with my emotions and my mentality. i've seen and learnt alot from 2009. im not getting younger. i need to kinda like step up my game. i can't always live a life under a shadow of a teenager anymore, its time to grow u, big time. quit acting childish & quit being irresponsible. in short ditch the bad habits. its time to prove some people wrong by underestimating me and put an end towards looking down on me. im going to be a hella of person you never imagined i would be. i bet on myself and if i lose the bet i'll only have myself to be embarrased about. so to all who are going to make new year resolutions, pls be effing serious about u damn life, if not dont bother to even have any resolutions! :)

2009-12-12T12:31:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was AWWWEESSOOMMEE! a last minute pre-bday suprise for our dear Saiful at esplanade. lighted candles of a heart (it's nice thanks to ally!) but initially it was suppose to his name but there weren't enough candles so yeah. haha. poor shafiq had to lie and buy us alot of time giving excuses to saiful. haha. well, saiful was suprised & speechless, so a lil hard work paid off. :) then off we walked to haji lane for some puff. another awesome funny fun time among ourselves and the guys working there. took photos with them and ALOT of camwhoring! haha.

check this kid out. he's super cute. :)

2009-12-09T13:40:00.002+08:00

ok finally im able to update something now. there wasnt any internet connection at 'puncak' (mountain peak). it isnt literally on the mountain peak but its around there (you get wht i mean) and its where i spent my past 4 days. now back in jakarta city and going to hit to some pub with my cousins later at night. I AM PROUD OF MYSELF because i didnt spend a rupiah on clothes whatsoever stuffs. haha. all was on food and other fun stuff. well, i gotta bounce. ya'all have fun at home yeah. cheers :)

2009-12-04T14:49:00.002+08:00

surprisingly today i woke up earlier 9am then my usual holiday wake up time at 11am. hah. and i think it has got to do with my dream last night. OK, i don't really believe in dreams coming true but i was pretty happy with my life and myself in my dream. so i thought of just sharing it here, hang on, its going to get a bit mushy. haha.

well it started off in a bus and this particular attractive guy (i guess i know the guy but not going to mention it). i was kinda confused why are girls all over him. i think i think i did not want to make a fool out of myself, i didn't get involved and was watching the mobile TV on the bus when i saw that guy on the screen. and then suddenly he was right there beside me and gave me the most charming smile a guy could ever give. then i couldn't remember what happened, next thing i knew i was in a most beautiful wedding dress at this very extravagant house, i had my make up done & pardon me for praising myself but i looked way different that i couldn't recognize myself. i didn't know what i was doing there. and then i heard a voice and there it was that guy on the bus. the end. hah, yeah, what an ending right? haha. well, strangely, when i was so immersed in my dream, there this huge feeling of joy like it was the most happiest moment of my life. this may sound freaky but i was smiling ever since i woke up but its gonna be a fairytale of mine that will help me forget my sorrows, i believe that.

last night i catched New Moon at the last slot. it was fully booked for the good seats, i've decided to go for the last show. its fangtastic. but still, how i wished they would have abit more from the book in the movie. still, its a good movie, the love story was nice. :) heh. i cant wait to watch esclipse next year around mid or near end of 2010. kudos. enjoy the weekends, i wont be here tho. i'll be at jakarta to meet my cousins! have fun, if im hardworking, i'll blog, if not, haha, bye!

2009-12-03T12:43:00.001+08:00

im lazy to go out and bored at home.

2009-12-02T22:57:00.001+08:00

even the fallen leaves of the autumn holds a colour of hope. where does my colour of hope stand?

2009-12-01T16:15:00.001+08:00

this is for my dear friend Sri Murny. i hope you get to read this. BE STRONG yeah hun. ily.

2009-11-30T11:31:00.001+08:00

2009-11-29T13:48:00.001+08:00

2009-11-28T15:17:00.003+08:00

hari raya haji celebration yesterday was fun yesterday for both RASMAN (mum) & SOSMAN (dad) family. festive seasons like this will never be boring when there are such loud & happening ppl in the family. i want to go to the holy Mecca with my family, that's a promise to myself. and the kambings yesterday was delicious. haha. cheers ppl. :D

2009-11-26T21:30:00.005+08:00

alright, so my younger brother couldnt sleep yesterday night. so i've decided to ask him to come sleep in my room. we played UNO & he won, sucks and it was 12.45am. im bored so is he. and decided to record some 'merde'. haha. ok dont mind me la, im like a total idiotic moron , which is not the main focus. just look at my hilarious brother. His name is Muhd Shukry & he freaking 13 years old! hah.

*yeah, my elder brother just got home, in time to celebrate Hari Raya Haji. haha, that asshole.

2009-11-25T17:12:00.001+08:00

2009-11-24T11:51:00.001+08:00

i think so to, MERDE HAPPENS! hah.

2009-11-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

it never really hit me how first impression really matters. how people judge you on first appearance. how strong that first impression sticks in that thick skull of people. some people made it work by being stupid and some made it work by giving such powerful body language. as much that ive been caring less about puting up a decent first impression, what i learnt is just being yourself. here i am, alone outside in the central of "cloudy" singapore looking at all the younger kids out with their mates having "fun"(idk a better way to describe of this kids having a good time) one lavishly wearing "cool" clothes the other trying to compete and trying to flirt when they saw cute guys walking pass. gosh, tellin ya, it's hilarious. i think i should do this more often. i like being alone, drinking starbucks, with nothing to worry(well in my case i do have stuffs to worry about) but as for now, i'll enjoy my time now. cheers people.

2009-11-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

watched the 2nd episode of IRIS just now & this time TOP finally came out. gosh, i could literally melt if i see him. ok, some of you may think that im a typical fan (duh) whatever. haha. but i may not be following IRIS when im starting work. shit, should have taken the set-top box that can record. argh. nvm, i'll find ways somehow. maybe ask my dad? haha (he's so interested in it too ok)

2009-11-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

i want to start saving up for one thing i love to do that i stopped saving up for, travelling. i don't want to be just circling around Malaysia, Indonesia or Thailand. i want to go beyond that. First, going to 2 countries in the Pacific that i loved & would love to go are Australia and New Zealand. Then, head on to Europe to visit the finest places such as Italy, France, Turkey, Switzerland and many more i should say. Then, a few stops in the Middle East like United Arab Emirates(Dubai etc) or Saudi Arabia(Madain Saleh etc). whoa, that's a list but im going to work hard to make it work. June 2010 ; Australia Dec 2010; Sweden. :)

have a good holidays people. cheers.

2009-11-03T21:33:00.003+08:00

i had fun being in a foreign country where no one knows me., not trying to imply that im well-knowned in singapore. its just that you're not bound to meet anyone u know unless you know anyone from the foreign country. i got to be myself without thinking of other people's judgement. ironically, i dont know what it feels like to be myself. hah. but i got to give credit to a distant cousin whom i rarely, and i mean RARELY meet him. a brief of what happened that lifted up my spirit from all that has happened. bumped to him, chat up, he invited me to watch him perform at some pub, attended, enjoying his performance, CLIMAX, "would i invite my lovely cousin to come up and sing with me, she came all the way from singapore to watch me perform for the 1st time, & for the qst time i shall sing with her tonight.", people clapped & im like "WHAT??!!" haha seriously that instant change of face was undescribable said my cousin. eventually i sang, & lucky for me we sang "Lucky" a song that i've been practicing to make it perfect for a cover. kudos for me. but the experience was unbelieveable & one of a kind that i wont be able to get anywhere or anytime. thanks cousin, looking forward to see you again, minus the singing in public. :)

im beat, bye ppl.

2009-10-31T11:43:00.005+08:00

A New Resolution To Early?

what makes me think that i can do better?

what should i do to make myself better?

under what circumstances should i change myself?

am i ready for the change?

will i be up for the change?

will i be ready of the path that i've choosen?

oh yeah, HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!

2009-10-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

my status is clear; promoted. im glad, elated, blessed & at the same time sad and lost. the positive feelings felt so great because when i received my status its like a golden ticket that one convict could die for to be free. the negative feelings bloomed in the midst of joy because the ones that im close with and starting to be close with are leaving. it will not be the same without them. the atmosphere will be different. i've promised them & myself that i'll make time to be with them, hang out frequently & just staying in contact. i love you guys, all of the 09B2 mates that im close with, leaving or staying. you guys rock. \m/

2009-10-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

my position now is on the fence.

i may either fall on the side of the happy farm or the dump stinky ass one. i

ts a night of agony & im angry on myself.

i put up a happy face just now at sch when i clearly know its all fake.

it's not fun talking abt it. bye.

2009-10-26T18:12:00.003+08:00

was sunday night a blast or whaaat?! haji lane for some shisha. played "Level Up!" which was hilarious & fun then played "Snap" which sucks coz i lost. i was the QUEEN of decks ystd. haha. head on to boat quay to watch soccer at Harry's Bar. earlier on the trip i was telling ally, "pls dont let us see any MI ppl today." & guessed what smacked right infront of us were a group of MI seniors & apparently we know them. hah. atmosphere was great coz it was filled with Man Utd fans, haha, little do they know a person by the name of ALICIA HWANG is a Liverpool fan! that's abt it on ystd.

i went to Drama Centre for an interview with Addey. ok, i think i may like this job if i get it. plus we deal with kids, that's going to be fun to, i guess. haha. oh wells, today is my lovely uncle's bday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE. we're heading to Sakura for dinner in an hours' time. great, my McSpicy has not been fully digested, i wont be able to indulge to my fullest potential later! haha fucking lame la sha! haha. chiao ppl.

2009-10-24T14:00:00.003+08:00

ahoy there. well lets see. ystd night met murny love like FINALLY. we did alot of catching up. i cracked some jokes that made murny laughed out loud as in literally LOL. but i had fun. it's nearing 11 & i didnt want murny to go hm late on her own so decided to take our conversation as we walked to the bus stp. then mum suddenly called.

mum: where are you?
me: oh im accompanying murny to the bus stp. what's up?
mum: (sounded rather panic) after acompany murny come home quick!
me: why? what happen? lek ah.
mum: (still sound panic) your laptop la! i dont know what to do with it!
me: oh chey. ok im walking back alr. chiao.

my mum is hilarious & i love her. yes i love her & hope she wld love me when my results is out on tuesday. gosh its nerve wrecking. im absolute clueless on how i did. ok sha, be optimistic.
oh no, the more i think abt it the more i'll freak out. ok, tmw meeting ally, saiful & shafiq for shisha, that should help release my tension abit. should i meet eve & yusri after that for chalet? hmm. bye

2009-10-20T21:14:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO BE AS FIT AS MY ELDER BROTHER!

(some ns shit will do me good! whooo, i miss my brother!)

2009-10-20T17:09:00.002+08:00

pardon for the absence. im just having an ass whippin' fun with my friends & family since the last day of exam two fridays ago. shisha, hanging out till late morning, chalet, raya outing, jb, family day out, jb again lastly SLEEP all day. im telling u, these events are splat chronological order. haha. you can say that everyday was hardly at home & hardly much sleep except for the last day which was ystd to sleep all day. but still went out with family for little shopping & dinner at Sakura-shiok!

today was triple fun. went to lunch with other 16 friends @ Makan Shiok! around 1045am, with the tables filled with the delicious Chicken Rice. Then head on to Bowling Alley and was pretty happy tht luck was on my side i should say. awesome! then it was 105pm! so we were late. 15 mins to reach sch? impossible is nothing. but it felt like a thriller moment when there was teachers back frm lunch. haha. oh wells, then came down down to interhouse games. oh it was so great! we owned captain's ball man! haha. minus the unexpected accident of HT, hope her back is ok. :)

fuh, that's abt it for the past week. im trying to tone down my fun. hah.

i want to meet ALLY, AIN (& gang) & sec friends (plans always cancelled.)

so see ya. cheers.

2009-10-07T21:07:00.005+08:00

i know im suppose to be studying Maths now but PeiShi intro me this new kid in the bloc yaw! Catch out Justin Bieber. Other than he's one cute white kid, he's talented, certified by Usher & Nick Cannon. cheers, enjoy. :)

2009-10-04T17:40:00.002+08:00

what an awful state to be in with exams starting tmw & im having flu and fever three days straight. im trying my best to suck it all into my brain & hope there'll be no memory malfunction tmw. i love my parents & i want to do them proud, that will help keeping me going. yes. the rest of you, all the best.

and friends, we shall party after exams. :)

2009-10-01T21:32:00.004+08:00

i was walking down the beach
listening to the sounds of the waves
brushing my feets through the sands
enjoying the view of the sunset

you held me tight not letting me go
whispering so softly to my ear
you said those three words love
as i kissed gently on your lips

how time has flew it went away
leaving behind seet memories
now that the story has end
we'll start afresh with our own tale

the page is fresh it felt so new
i knew our feelings is still true
you were the guy i loved
the guy i knew was my soulmate.

2009-09-30T22:17:00.009+08:00

I met ally love again. i had great fun with her. it's always fun, duh. haha.
well, GP paper went ok for me, alhamdulillah. i hope i could just get an E atleast & i'll be happy. haha. what a target! wokey. so someone's has grown up after changing her PRE-U ezlink card to NAFA ezlink card. mate was kinda pissed coz she won't be able to pay 45cents for a train ride. haha. but she was excited when she tried her PRE-U card just now & it's working. hah, let's see for how long she's going to stay KID. alright while accompanying ally replace her card, this ah peck tried to find fault with me saying that i cut the queue. when he walked away i was cursing & swearing him non-stop. so what? i tried to be polite by explaining to him that im not in the queue just accompany & he was blabbering non-stop in chinese. grr. whatever, he can just whine all he want i dont give a damn to that kinda old man.

alright. i need to study. tmw is thursday, i forgot. it's fun having exams & going back early and hanging out with mates all night. fun. i WISH i could enjoy that kind of life. ah, whatever, i need some jamming session after promos, yes. get back on the music thing yaw. chiao.

2009-09-28T10:31:00.003+08:00

i want to get this exam stress over and done with. i keep telling myself to focus, but the focus kept running away. & i'm not trying to be complecent with life like some might think. i'm taking things one at a time or am i taking to slow? hah. my life does not revolves around books, notes, lectures & assignments. there's still a part of me that i've yet to discover, it's still hiding behind the bush.

2009-09-22T20:59:00.002+08:00

raya was a little different since my late aunt passed away. visiting of houses re-shuffled. it was all fun though. catchin up lost times together, getting angry because e lift was late & took revenge by pressing the lift button on e every floor went down, to eating alot of good food (really blessed coz my mummy is the best chef, those who's coming my house are those lucky ones. haha) & reminising the mistakes i've done, the disappointment i brought & the the tears that i've made my parents shed by asking for forgiveness, knowing that all that was not done intentionally. i've still got raya keching$ keching$. best or what. hah.

exams won't leave me much time to enjoy raya. & the more i think about it, sweden trip is drawing nearer by the minute & i only managed to save $200 for shopping at present, bleargh. work hard!

ok, now i've got the desire to go to old lanes & alleys to find good food & train tracks to lepak at. haha. random. bb, enjoy raya malay ppl. :)

2009-09-19T01:13:00.003+08:00

i got to know this band, Not Without Grace, from sweden. it's pretty sweet how this girl made her own rendition of the song. pretty awesome i should say. i miss music, im so tied down with alot of things that i learnt that it's difficult to be able to commit 100%, now i understand what lan said to me last time. i'll get back to music once this crazy school things is over and done with.

it's early mornig now, i just finished studying MOB and tmw's hari raya. geez, i dont feel the rush to celebrate. why uh? it's suppose to be fun! zomg. i haven't get my raya shoes, what am i going to wear?! oh wells, here's to all muslim people, enjoy ur long weekend & enjoy last day of puasa, u should be sad it's leaving, i know i am. gah, ah lastly SELAMAT HARI RAYA. \m/

2009-09-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

yesterday one of my greatest love, ALICIA HWANG, crash in back to school. & guess what, she wore uniform back to school! haha, it's weird seeing a NAFA kid wearing school uniform. oh gosh, i just miss her to bits. haha. had alot of fun with her new DSLR with saiful & shafiq taking super weird and obscene photos. haha. it's a total camwhoring session & long long conversations! was suppose to meet her tonight for sheesha but she got drawings to do & i have exam to study for. yikes, speaking of which i am very worried about. don't even feel like celebrating raya with such "perfect timing" (you know what i mean -_-)

oh wells, it's 2 more days to raya, keep the spirit going people! cheers :)

2009-09-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

what's with young adolescents nowadays? is it just curiosity or are they just growing too fast? pretending to be an age far away from theirs' just to be the attention of the public. showing skin & cleavage, is that all necessary? well some can really pull them off but most are just unsightful. we're of the same gender but i felt disgusted. some may think it's pure jealousy of a human, or to be exact, a female, to be envious of another female. with all do respect, i didn't feel that slight of jealousy of someone who's so capable of being such a low-class.
oh wells, i don't want to carry on my speculation, everyone's different, this could sound contradicting but at the end of the day, people don't care you see. FULLSTOP. bb.

2009-09-11T13:50:00.001+08:00

this post is dedicated to a very special person who i very precious in my life.

we got to know each other unknowingly,
we clicked off well & immedietly,
i knew from then on that we are going to have a friendship so lovely.

you cheered me up when i'm down,
you picked me up when i fall.
you made me smile everytime i frown,
you answered me when i gave you a call.
you made me feel special evrytime i felt insecure,
your innocence is so honest & pure

i'm glad that i know you
& i'm glad that you're a part of my life.
i'm blessed that i have you,
& i'm blessed that you're my friend, Sri Murny Bte Kamal.

2009-09-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

Current Location: Changi Airport

McSpicy Meal Upsized followed by Double Choc Frappe(McCafe) off to Starbucks wet to Choc Cream Chip Venti. that's a whole load of sweetness. haha. ENJOY ADDEY & FARITH!

2009-09-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

seating by the streets of singpore city,
watching the cars pass me by,
looking at different people walk by me,
different shapes, sizes and styles,
wouldnt it be great if i know what these people are thinking,
sharing their happiness and sorrow.

seating by the streets of singpore city,
reminising all the things that has happpened to me,
looking back at the things i've done and the things that i shouldn't have did,
making those feeling of sweetness and bitterness alive making it so surreal.

2009-09-06T21:23:00.001+08:00

I found him on a dream, looking for me

2009-09-02T12:30:00.002+08:00

SWEDEN here i come baby!

ok now I really need to worry about money!

woohoo im so chargeed up for this trip.

2009-09-01T13:57:00.003+08:00

i am officially looking for another job, an ass-kicking job that suits my personality. dont ask me why, i cant be bothered to explain, its about time i guess. they're really a great company but shit happens. (oh, it's not you, it's just me; gosh, so cliche)
to whoever have great lobang, pls do tell me. let's hope i can still survive & not be broke so soon, hah.

2009-08-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

'Orphan" was an awesome movie.
girls was a GREAT fun.
Tcc's meal is simply heaven.
& now i feel that i've satisfy my guilty pleasure.

how i wish, you imaginary person will come alive & live life with me in this surreal reality.

2009-08-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

start where i've not started.

stop what i've started.

do more than your best.

even if it kills, you will be the best.

2009-08-16T22:05:00.001+08:00

i didnt knew that few words i wrote recently has got to do with my life.
it's funny. & i've found smth tht i could write on.
my brains just kept on creating, & my hands kept on writing.
every word written felt so deep. every tune made it felt so surreal.
why im blabbering all this i dont know, just felt like it.

2009-08-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

sweden, vietnam or mt. kinabalu expedition?
im spoiled for choices. tmw will be the interview for the Sweden exchange trip.
i hope that everything will go smoothly tmw.

ok, now im TRYING to study for tmw's econs test, very helpful.

2009-08-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

I want to go to Sweden! gosh what a way to start my post.
Nov 3-4 2009, those dates i hope im able to be somewhere else.
im just egggggcited just thinking abt it.
i rush through my essay just now to hopefully be shorlisted for the trip.
dad gave me a SUPER GREEN light if im selected to go.
it would be awesome if i could really gt those limited spots.
dude, SWEDEN man, who won't be excited?
you'll be lying if you're not, please.

OK I'VE BEEN MISSING ALOT OF SCH & IT'S TIME TO GET BACK ON TRACK.

CHIAO.

2009-08-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

It seems like there is nothing much for me to blog about except that i miss my friends whose name has been mentioned dozens of time.
know what, i think im sort of grounded due to my not up to standard passes for my promo 1.
i said "sort of" is because my parents won't show it or tell me off for not getting "good enough" results & they don't have to tell me. dude, it's written all over their face. well grounded or not, it seems the same.
i don't have the mood to go out on weekdays, straight back home after sch, my weekends burnt because of work.
it seems like i've got no life, but i don't give a damn.
it's not that i'm having problems or anything.
its just that im starting to hate the fact that i am spending every cent i have, be it from my pay or my parents.
leisure wise is en exception though i still have to cut down on that.
i need to plan for my future for goodness sake.
& all those huge plans i have, i can't throw it just because of all my child's play.
true, there is a kid in all of us, but im not going to be a kid like forever instead grow up.
gosh, what am i even talking about. bragging about myself.
i just want to be ME, problem is, i cant find that ME.

2009-07-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

as the night goes on i started thinking.

cut it down to max 10 by 2.

discipline for 10.

gather it up for my plans.

don't understand? its ok, not meant to be understood immediatly.

2009-07-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

CINTA (LOVE) in progress.

Ada seorang jejaka
Yang tinggal sama daerah denganku
Ada keistimewaan
Tentang si dia yang tlah buat hatiku tertawan

Satu bisa ku sapa?
Dua tanyakan nama?
Tiga bisa kita berteman?

Cinta, kau tlah buatku gila
dengan setiap kelakuan mu
ku makin jatuh
Cinta, kau buat tubuhku lemah
dari setiap pandangan matamu
ku kan rebah, cinta
oh love, cinta..

2009-07-11T23:50:00.003+08:00

never thought so much abt it before

never been so emotional.

never thought that i was that weak.

never had felt anything so surreal.

wish never could just fade.

2009-07-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

"screw maths big time. haha. shouldn't have turn up to sch today, i've wasted the marker for the maths paper. gah."

i've been spending alot of time with my family like this whole wk we've been having outside meals, trying to give mummy time off frm cooking. when im with my family i can spend money without giving a damn & mummy won't say a single word. just like yesterday gave a huge treat to mummy full of Body Shop stuffs, whoever knows abt that sale at e atrium, they would know. other than that the end of gss is really driving everyone's money crazy. haha

& oh boy i do get high once i meet my friends at sch especially when im with cheryl, shikin, eve, jac & the many other crazy millennians. sch will be much more fun with lesser pressure frm our academics, these PARTY people uh. *shaking my head* what more with my class's last paper on fri & a week of break, hell yeah. alot of the time under e sun, the shisha & the partying is going on. woohoo.

FARIZ, SAHLAN, AMEN, MURNY, KYN are one of the few people i want to meet soon.
& i miss jujut & soleh frm myspace! dudes, catch up!

ok, suddenly have an inspiration to write a song. (what a lenghty post, bleargh, bye)

2009-06-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

jakarta here is quite peaceful.

like any other trip made here, i always find peace & a new set of inspirations.

now, i'll starve for australia, literally i will if i have to! haha.

im not going to depend on my parents for my future travelling trips.

i like the thrill of travelling with just my friends & cousins.

is just not right for me to get my parents pay for my trips when im the only one enjoying.

yes im being more independent & yes im financially wise now with my money.

i miss my mates, old or new, now that im here.

& school is starting in 6 days time & im not prepared for mid-yrs.